Pairings: Hyukhae, Sihae, Kyumin, Kihae, Haesica
Rating: PG-13 for this chapter
Warning: Mention of drug use, addiction, sexual situations, swearing and violence (not in this chapter)
Summary: Kyuhyun invents a drug that is so powerful it changes your life, one taste and you're hooked.
A/N: inspired by Bigbang's Beautiful Hangover MV
Donghae woke up before Siwon. He looked down at the sleeping man, who seemed a lot less manly in this state. He smiled, he liked when Siwon was like this. All peaceful and still, just like a picture.
But his smile dropped when he realized what day it was.
Today he would have to leave and he wasn't sure when he'd be back.
He wanted to wake the older male up, have hot morning wake up/goodbye sex but something in his chest constricted at the thought.
"It's not goodbye" he whispered gently kissing Siwon on the forehead. He carefully crawled out of bed, making sure not to disturb the older males sleep.
Walking into the kitchen he grabbed a piece of paper and a pen. He sat down at the table and tried to come up with something to say. Something that wouldn't make the older man freak out when he woke up to an empty bed and an empty apartment.
I'll be back soon
maybe not today, but soon
this isn't goodbye
Donghae placed the note on the table and grabbed an apple and his jacket before he left the apartment, making sure to lock it on his way out.
As he was walking down the street he vaguely wondered if he should have said something more, or at least said something in person. But Donghae wasn't that person, he always left, that's who he was.
Siwon woke up to an empty bed. He stretched his limbs and stood up making his way towards the kitchen. But Donghae was nowhere in sight. He called out for his lover but when he got no reply he went to make himself a cup of coffee.
On his way he noticed a not on the table. He picket it up and quickly read it, a frown making its way onto his face "You could have at least woke me up" he said throwing the note in the garbage once he was finished reading it.
Yes Donghae always left and yes he never stuck around for very long but Siwon loved him with his whole heart. Even though sometimes the younger man would just disappear without so much as a word, or that he wouldn't come back sometimes for weeks on end. But that was just who Donghae was and Siwon had vowed to change the younger.
Donghae put the key into his front door "I didn't think I'd be back here so soon" he said twisting the key into the lock. He let out a sigh when he opened the door and walked in turning on a light; he threw his keys onto the kitchen table and headed to the shower.
He had things to do today.
Eunhyuk walked into the coffee shop he frequented almost every day. He walked up to the lady that always took his order and asked for his usual.
"Make that two" a familiar voice said from next to him. Eunhyuk turned his head to see Donghae standing there with a smirk on his face as if challenging Eunhyuk to refuse him.
"Two usuals please" Eunhyuk said, not taking his eyes off Donghae who smile in return.
"What are you doing here?" Eunhyuk asked when they moved away to wait for their coffees to be made.
"You have my book" Donghae accused
"Because you forgot it when you ran away after kissing me" Eunhyuk rebutted
Donghae bit his lip in a seductive way and leaned in real close to Eunhyuk and quietly declared "You liked it" before he turned around and grabbed the coffee the woman was offering him.
Eunhyuk glared at the younger for a fraction of a second before he too grabbed his coffee.
"I don't have the book on me" Eunhyuk said after he caught up to the younger.
"That's fine, but I will need it eventually" Donghae said taking a cautionary sip of his coffee.
"I returned it" Eunhyuk admitted
Donghae looked at Eunhyuk as if the man was a ghost "Why?" he asked
"You ran away and I didn't know how to contact you...I thought I'd never see you again and I didn't want you to get a fine" Eunhyuk explained.
"That's actually kind of sweet" Donghae said with a smile, taking another sip of his coffee.
"I think that's the first time anyone's actually called me sweet" Eunhyuk laughed casually sipping on his coffee.
Donghae nodded his head "Sweet but inconvenient" he said letting out a sigh.
"If you want I could come with you" Eunhyuk offered, he wasn't even sure why he did that, he had a meeting to attend later.
"You're not busy?" Donghae asked
"Nothing more important comes to mind"
Donghae smiled; his heart racing in his chest. He took a hold of Eunhyuk's free hand with his and started walking down the street towards the library.
Once they got there Donghae released Eunhyuk's hand and walked over to the computer to pull up information on the book. He quickly typed in the title and waited for the information to come up. But it didn't, all it said was Book Currently Unavailable.
"Eunhyuk are you sure you turned it in?" Donghae whispered to the older man standing next to him.
"Yes" Eunhyuk whispered back
"It says it's unavailable" Donghae whispered right back
"You're probably just doing it wrong" Eunhyuk said quietly pushing Donghae aside and re-imputing the information. But once again all he got was 'book currently unabailable'
"Shit" Eunhyuk said a little too loud and got more than a few glares.
"What?" Donghae asked pushing Eunhyuk aside to look at the screen "Are you sure you turned it in?" Donghae asked once again after he had finished reading the information.
"Yes, why would I lie about that?" Eunhyuk defended himself.
"I didn't say you were lying" Donghae said forgetting to be quiet. He recieved a few "shhhh" and a dozen glared "What am I supposed to do now?" Donghae said letting his head fall onto the table with an exasperated sigh.
Eunhyuk apologized to the people around them who looked like they were about to murder the pair.
"Maybe it's still at the front desk" Eunhyuk offered helpfully. Donghae smiled at the suggestion and grabbed Eunhyuk's hand pulling him towards the librarian's desk.
Unfortunately for the pair Eunhyuk's phone rang on the way. It took a shocked Eunhyuk 3 rings to pull it out of his pocket and silence it.
"Get out!" the Librarian yelled in a quiet voice.
"But..." Donghae tried to protest but got cut off by a stern yet quiet "Now"
They hurriedly left the building before the old woman could throw books at their heads.
Once outside Eunhyuk felt bad about the situation and was going to apologize but when he looked over at Donghae the younger burst into laughter.
"Did we just get kicked out of the library?" he asked through giggles
"I think so" Eunhyuk said with a gummy smile
"Awesome" Donghae said and Eunhyuk nodded his head in agreement
"Sorry about you book though" he apologized "I feel like it's my fault"
Donghae just shrugged "Wasn't for me anyways"
Eunhyuk smiled at the younger, he had a feeling they were about to part ways and he didn't want that.
"Hey do you want..." Eunhyuk started to say but got cut off by the ringing of his phone.
Donghae smiled "Are you going to answer that?" he asked
Eunhyuk looked at the caller id. It was his father, he had already missed two calls from him and he knew his father would be furious. He looked back up at Donghae and out of impulse pressed the ignore call button.
Donghae smile when he looked down at his and Eunhyuk's connected hands. But the smile didn't last when he was suddenly hit with how wrong this was. He wasn't supposed to be around Eunhyuk, he was supposed to stay away. At least for a little while. But when Eunhyuk had asked him if he wanted to take a walk, just a simple walk, no destination in mind Donghae couldn't find it in himself to say no.
The ringing of Eunhyuk's phone gave Donghae the excuse to remove his hand. And just like that his guilt intensified.
Eunhyuk checked the caller id, it was his father, again. He felt guilty, but not guilty enough to press talk, so for the 6th time that day Eunhyuk pressed the ignore call button. He could have silenced his phone and in the process silenced his guilt but somehow he just couldn't do that.
The two were silent as they walked down the street and for the first time since they had met they were not holding hands while walking.
Eunhyuk thought it didn't feel right but he couldn't bring himself to initiate the hand holding. So instead he asked "Do you want to go to the park?"
Donghae looked at Eunhyuk and smiled "Sure"
They arrived at the park. Neither Donghae nor Eunhyuk had tried to hold the other's hand. Just as neither of them knew what they were doing. Donghae had fallowed Eunhyuk into the park but Eunhyuk didn't have a plan. He just felt that the younger man was slipping away and he wanted more time with him, even if it was just for a little while.
They walked around a path that led them to a secluded section of the park. Dongahe looked at the trees as they walked; to Eunhyuk the younger man seemed so different then he'd ever seen him before. He was about to ask what was wrong when his phone rang again.
Donghae smiled as the older male silenced his phone yet again. He grabbed a hold of Eunhyuk's hand and led them to a spot just under a giant tree. He sat down pulling the older male with him.
They sat in silence secretly stealing side glances at each other. Donghae knew it was wrong, he had promised not to see Eunhyuk until this business deal was ober but that thought only made his sad and he didn't know why.
"You know for a 24 year old you certainly don't get very much done" Donghae laughed when Eunhyuk was gapping at him from his comment. They had been sitting under the tree in silence for too long and Donghae wanted to break it.
"You barely know me how can you make such an assumption?" Eunhyuk asked once he recovered.
"You don't really seem like you have your head on straight" Donghae said with a seriousness that Eunhyuk thought Donghae shouldn't be capable of.
"What do you know? You're only 19" Eunhyuk replied back equally as serious.
"I know a lot" Donghae said laying on the ground and looking up into the sky. Eunhyuk fallowed his movements and lay down next to the younger man, except he didn't look at the sky; he turned his head to face Donghae.
"Like what?" he asked, eyes roaming over the side of Donghae's face
"I know that your phone has been ringing for an hour, maybe more and you haven't once answered it. I know it's probably pretty important because no one calls that much for no reason. But you tell me it's nothing and spend the day with me in the park. What I can't figure out is why?"
"Why does there have to be a reason?" Eunhyuk asked causing Donghae to look at him
"There doesn't" he said
After a minute of silently staring into each other's eyes Eunhyuk moved his hand up to brush away stray hairs that had fallen into Donghae's face. Donghae closed his eyes as Eunhyuk's hand brushed his cheek and before he could process what he was doing he leaned forward and kissed Eunhyuk. A chaste, innocent brush of lip on lip and within the time it took to inhale he had pulled away.
"I should go" he said sitting up. Eunhyuk smiled as he too sat up; at least he hadn't run away this time.
"Okay" Eunhyuk said
Donghae smiled at the older and made a move to stand up, but Eunhyuk caught his arm
"Can I have your number?" he asked.
Donghae knew it wasn't a good idea. Not even Siwon knew Donghae's number, in fact only Kyuhyun, Sungmin and Kibum knew it. He should say no, his mind was screaming at him to say no. He was going to say no.
"Yes" he said, his mouth betraying his mind and before he could stop himself he had typed the number into Eunhyuk's phone.
"I have to go" Donghae said after he handed the phone back to Eunhyuk. He stood up and walked away from the spot as fast as he could. He had to get away from that place, away from Eunhyuk.
He had just willingly given away his number, and to someone he's only know a few days. It took him a year to trust Kibum with it and he just gave it to Eunhyuk.
Donghae started to run with no location in his mind.
All he knew was he had to get away.