Title: Finding You Again
Chapter: 1 part 3/3
Pairing: Kihae, eventually Hyukhae, Yewook and Changmin/Kibum
Summary: (Sequel to Finding You ) Donghae and Hyukjae are given a second chance at finding each other, but will their new lives keep them apart?
Note: This is written from Ryeowook's point of view.
After leaving Donghae I knew exactly what I needed to do, what I should have done years ago.
I was going to confess to Yesung.
I pulled out my cell phone and dialed a number I had committed to memory the minute I received it.
With each ring my heart sped up. This was it.
"Hello?" Yesung's voice trickled through the speaker of my phone.
"Hello" I replied
"Oh, Ryeowook how are you?"
"I'm good, I was just wondering if I could talk to you" I asked, my heart doing little back flips inside of my chest.
"Of course" he replied, his voice a husky smooth lullaby to my ears "Where are you?"
After deciding that I would meet him at his apartment I hung up the phone and started to walk in the right direction.
I was a nervous wreck.
Sometimes my resolve would slip, other times it would strengthen but it didn't matter, I was going to confess.
Nothing was going to stop me.
Not even my own hesitance.
Before I knew it I was standing in front of his apartment building, and then in a blink of an eye I was standing in front of his door. I had no idea how I even got there.
I took a deep breath and knocked on the door three times.
It seemed to take Yesung an eternity to open the door, when in actuality it was probably only a few seconds. My heart was racing from all the nervousness I felt but as soon as I saw Yesung smile it all washed away.
I could do this.
He let me in and we went to sit down on the couch. I asked if we were alone and he said that everyone was still at school. I nodded and went to speak but nothing came out.
"What did you want to talk to me about?" Yesung asked "you're not in trouble are you?" I smiled; he was always so worried about me.
I shook my head, still unable to speak.
"Then what's the matter?" he asked, trying to mask his nervousness but I could still hear it, I could always tell when he was nervous. Just like he could tell when I was nervous. He took my hands into his and I tried to ignore the hammering of my heart.
"What's wrong?" he asked "your cheeks are all red" and then he took one of his fingers and trailed it down my cheek. I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch.
I had to tell him, if I didn't I was going to explode.
I tood a deep breath and opened my eyes, this was it.
"I love you" I said looking straight into his eyes. And then he smiled, his eyes lighting up and crinkling in that very charming way that makes my heart stop beating for a fraction of a second and I felt a rush of hope wash through my body.
"I love you too" he said except that his smile was no longer there and his eyes had lost that shine, replaced by a dull looking sadness that instantly broke my heart.
"Then why do you look so sad?" I questioned even though I knew I wouldn't like the answer.
He let go of my hands and I instantly felt cold.
"We can't be together Ryeowook" he said turing away from me. I thought I felt cold before but that was nothing compared to this.
"W-Why?" I aksed, this isn't how this was supposed to go.
He didn't say anything; he just continued to look ahead.
"Why?" I asked again, this time tears running down my cheeks.
When he didn't answer me I turned forward and stared at his reflection in the television screen. When our eyes meet through our reflection he looked so sad, so apologetic but I didn't understand, he was the one saying we couldn't be together.
"I don't understand Yesung" I said
"I know" he finally spoke, his voice a mixture of depression and anxiety.
"Explain it to me" I begged, I needed more than just 'I know'
"It's complicated" he answered
"How is it complicated?" I asked "I love you, you love me. Where is the complication?"
He let out a shaky breath and closed his eyes, not that he was facing me, I could see it through the TV screen.
"You deserve someone better than me" Yesung answered and it made me mad
"There is no one better than you" I admitted and through the television screen I think I saw a tear fall from his eye.
He didn't say anything.
I didn't say anything.
We just sat there in silence.
It was the end, I could just feel it.
"Can we still be friends?" He asked after an eternity of silence.
I didn't know how to answer him.
We could never go back to what we were and it was clear he wasn't going to let us go forward. We were stuck.
"I don't know" I said. It was true, I didn't know if I could go back to being friends with him. It hurt too much right now. I needed time to think.
I stood up and made my way to the door.
"I'm sorry" I heard Yesung say "I'm so sorry"
I shook my head and ran out the door.
It hurt too much.
I ran and ran until I was standing in front of a door. I don't even know why I was standing here or even when I decided to come here but I knocked anyways.
And Donghae opened the door.
"Ryeowook what happened?" he asked
"Can I go to China with you?" it was the first thing that came to my mind.
He was silent for a second, looking straight into my eyes, into my soul
"Yes" he answered pulling me into a hug.