Pairing: Eventually Hyukhae, Yewook and Kimin
Summary: (sequel to Finding You) Donghae and Hyukjae are given a second chance at finding each other, but will their new lives keep them apart?
Note: This is written from Hyukjae and Ryeowook's point of view.
I have been pacing in my room for an hour now, the guilt slowly eating away at my mind. The things I had said to Yesung...How could I have said them? How could I have taken my anger out on Yesung?
...well it was his fault anyways. He should have known better then to ask me for permission to date my cousin when I was clearly upset.
But still, I shouldn't have hurt him like that. He didn't deserve it.
"I should go apologize to him" I decide and leave my bedroom to go find Yesung.
But the sight that greeted me when I walked into the living room was not what I expected.
Yesung was sitting on the couch staring at the blank television screen, which considering it was Yesung wouldn't have been so weird if it wasn't for the fact that he was crying.
"What happened?" I asked when I sat down next to him, completely forgetting about apologizing to him. I couldn't have caused this.
He turned to me, his eyes red and filled with tears and at that very second I thought maybe he wasn't as brave as he always seemed to be. He looked so broken and distraught that it really caught me off guard. Who could have done this to him?
"Nothing, I'm fine" I heard him say but the voice was all wrong, it wasn't Yesung's voice. It was the voice of a man who had recently lost everything.
"Yesung wha..." I tried to ask again but he cut me off with an obvious fake smile.
"I'm starving, do you want anything from the shop?" and before I could even answer he was walking out the door.
"What happened to him?" I asked the empty room, it suddenly felt too cold and too lonely so I stood up and left.
With nothing else to do I decided to go to sleep.
Tears continued to fall stupidly down my face as I sat next to Donghae in front of his computer. He was furiously clicking away with a determination I've never witnessed before.
"You are going to get on the same flight as me if it's the last thing I do" he said that to the computer, not me.
"I tried to stop myself from crying but every click of the mouse made it seem less and less likely that I was going to be able to go to China with Donghae. Obviously, I could get another flight. But it all seemed so pointless unless I was with Donghae.
The minutes passed.
Donghae continued to click away like a mad man.
And when I heard Donghae sigh, I knew China was a no go.
I prepared myself for the disappointment when suddenly Donghae turned towards me, a sad smile plastered on his face.
"So bad news" he started "the seat next to me has already been sold" he ended with a pout.
"What?" I asked out of confusion. Was he saying I couldn't go with him?
"We're not going to be able to sit next to each other" he restated "I tried really hard, but I just couldn't manage it" he looked genuinely guilty.
"I don't understand" I said. I had convinced myself that it wasn't in the stars for me to go to China. That I was ging to have to spend my summer alone, with no one to help keep my mind off of Yesung.
Donghae stared at me as if I was crazy. And then it must have clicked.
"Oh!" he gasped "oh no, Ryeowook you're definitely going to China with me"
"I am?" I asked slowly, hope lacing my words.
"Yes, of course" he smiled and I couldn't stop myself from jumping onto his lap to give him a hug.
"Thank You" I mumbled into his neck.
"There's no need to thank me" Donghae admitted "I didn't pay for your ticket" he laughed then and I got off of him to return to my own seat. Because I knew even though Yesung had hurt me, Donghae was there and he would definitely try his hardest to help me get over it.
"So..." Donghae drew out "When are you going to tell everyone that on a spur of the moment decision you're going to be leaving for China in a week?"
"Uhhh" I said "The day we leave?"
Donghae laughed and then shrugged "seems like a reasonable plan to me"
I was woken up by the sound of pans clanking in the kitchen. Who the hell was cooking? Only one of my roommates cook and I was pretty sure Sungmin was on a date with Kyuhyun.
I drag myself out of bed. I guess meeting with Junsu earlier and finding a broken Yesung took its toll on my body. I felt extremely tired and for some strange reason I hoped the person in the kitchen was Leeteuk and not Yesung.
I opened my bedroom door and headed for the kitchen. I don't know whether to be disappointed or relieved when I find both Leeteuk and Yesung in there.
"What are you guys doing?" I ask the duo.
"Oh, Eunhyuk, you're awake" Leeteuk smiles and seems completely relieved. Yesung turns his head and smiles at me too, although the smile seems forced and not even slightly genuine.
"I'm making dinner for everyone but Leeteuk insists on keeping an eye on me" he says
"Oh" is all I can say. Leeteuk must have noticed the 'void' in Yesung's eyes.
"So..." Leeteuk draws out when the silence starts to become overly uncomfortable.
I turn to him expectantly but he doesn't continue. Yesung also waits for the eldest to continue and when doesn't he turns back around and continues cooking.
I share a look with Leeteuk then. And it's as if we can read each other's minds. We both were asking the other if they knew what happened to Yesung.
I rack my brain.
I remember waking up, going to visit Junsu, coming home, telling Yesung I didn't approve of him loving my cousin...Oh.
"Yesung?" I call out softly.
He turns around and stares at me, almost like he's looking straight through me.
"Are you...Aew you mad at me?" I ask
"No" he says slowly "Why would I be mad at you?"
"Uh" I have no intention of mentioning that I may be the cause of Yesung's odd (worse than usual) behavior.
"I was just curious" I lie
"Then are you mad at me?" Leeteuk asks frantically, believing it was his fault somehow.
"Of course not" Yesung reassures "I'm not mad, I'm not anything, I'm fine" The way he says 'I'm not anything' breaks my heart and I feel like crying. Leeteuk must have felt it too because when I turn to him he has the saddest expression on his face.
The silence continues as both myself and Leeteuk watch Yesung busy himself with his cooking. It's almost like he can't keep still. Every time he has to stand still he finds something else to do, like cutting vegetables or washing the utensils and knifes he was no longer using. It's almost too hard to watch but neither I not Leeteuk have the guts to stop Yesung from his manic behavior.
When he announces he's done he places an array of food down in front of us. I look down at the plates, it actually looks pretty good. I look over at Leeteuk who also has the same shocked face. And then I notice something
"You're not eating?" I ask
Yesung smiles. It doesn't reach his eyes.
"I'm not hungry" he informs "I just felt like cooking"
"Thank you" Leeteuk says probably because he couldn't think of anything else to say.
"Yeah, thanks. This looks delicious" I add
Yesung smiles again "I just hope it tastes good" he tries to joke, but it doesn't sound funny.
We oblige him with fake laughter. He doesn't really seem to care or acknowledge the faked laughter and sweeps over it by saying
"Well enjoy...The bathrooms been looking a little dirty, I should probably go clean it"
"It's actually my turn to clean it" Leeteuk informs
"Don't worry about it, I want to clean it" Yesung responds and walks away
When we hear the bathroom door shut Leeteuk looks at me and asks "What the fuck is wrong with him?"
"I..." I debate whether or not telling Leeteuk about me not giving Yesung permission to date Ryeowook is a good idea. In the end I decide against it. I value my life.
"I don't know" I say. It isn't a complete lie. There could be something else bothering him, although it seems highly unlikely, but there is also no way Yesung would act like this just because of me.
Leeteuk accepts my lie and begins eating. I do the same but my appetite isn't as big as it was a minute ago, my stomach is already full with guilt.
The next day I wake up to find Yesung sitting at the table eating breakfast. It's really strange because Yesung is always gone before I get up. He's usually walking my cousin to school.
"Is Ryeowook sick?" I ask as I join him for breakfast.
He looks up at me, all empty eyes and void expression on his face and shrugs "I don't know" he says
"Don't you usually walk him to school?" The question is redundant. We both know he does.
Yesung tries to smile "Yeah, I'm not doing that anymore" and he goes back to moving food around on his plate. Even if I wanted to ask him more, it was clear he wasn't going to answer me. I don't even think he acknowledged my presence anymore.
I watch him as I eat. He stirs his food around with his chop sticks, he picks it up and brings it to his mouth but he never actually eats it. It's like right before he opens his mouth he decides he doesn't want it and puts it back down on the plate, just to do the whole thing over again.
I'm a little bit concerned because he didn't eat last night either. But before I can tell him he needs to eat he stands up and informs me that he's leaving.
All I can do is nod and then that sick feeling I felt last night returns.
When I wake up in the morning to get ready for school I almost forget about yesterday. I almost forget about deciding to go to China. I almost forgot about Yesung not wanting us to be together. But I can't forget, not really. Not when I've been sitting by my front door for the last three hours waiting for Yesung to ring the door bell and walk me to school. Like he has done pretty much since the first week I met him.
But he doesn't show.
It feels wrong.
I feel wrong.
And now I'm late for school. I guess it doesn't matter though, my life pretty much ended yesterday.
At least in a few days I'll be in China so I won't have to pathetically wait by my door in hopes that Yesung shows up.
"What the fuck is wrong with Yesung?" Is the first thing Kyuhyun says as he sits down to eat
"What do you mean?" Sungmin asks. I look down at my food; I know what Kyuhyun is talking about. I witnessed some of it earlier today.
"You mean you haven't noticed?" Kyuhyun asks shocked "he's your roommate"
"What's wrong with Yesung?" Sungmin snaps, ignoring Kyuhyun's snark.
"I don't know what's wrong with him but in the last 2 hours I've seen him accidently walk into the ladies bathroom, trip up and down a flight of stairs, sit in the wrong seat on top of someone's lap and run into a tree. A tree! I mean its trunk wasn't even that thick."
"Really?" Sungmin asked.
Kyuhyun nods and then he turns to me "Please tell me you've noticed it"
I nod. Not even 7 minutes ago Yesung "accidently" dropped his food on the floor and decided rather than getting more food, his time would be better spent working out.
"So what's wrong with him?" Kyuhyun asks
"...I don't know" I say slowly, maybe too slowly because now both Kyuhyun and Sungmin are looking at me suspiciously.
Sungmin opens his mouth to say something but before the words come out Leeteuk runs up out of breath and announces
"I think I know what's wrong with Yesung"
"What?" the three of us ask in unison
"Well I was running home to get that assignment I forgot when I ran into Ryeowook" Leeteuk starts explaining "I thought it was weird because he should have been in school, I mean the high school started like 3 hours ago. So I asked him 'what are you doing out here?' and he said he wasn't feeling well this morning and I told him he should just go back home and rest but he insisted that he was fine. Except he looked kind of out of it and sad, sort of like Yesung so I offered to walk him to school and on the way there he told me that he was going to China for the summer."
The three of us sat in silence.
"I don't get it" Kyuhyun spoke, Sungmin and I nodded in agreement.
"Ryeowook is LEAVING to China for the WHOLE summer" he drew out slowly, like we were idiots.
"So?" Sungmin said
"So, obviously they are going to miss each other like crazy" Leeteuk informs "they practically spen every day together"
"I guess" I say slowly. It doesn't really make sense, Ryeowook would come back but Yesung was acting as if he had died.
"That has to be it" Leeteuk says determinedly "or else what could have happened to Yesung to make him act all weird?" he says this more quietly, almost like he was talking to himself.
"Yesung IS weird" Sungmin says.
"Yeah, that's true but you haven't seen him yet" Kyuhyun responds "he's not just being weird, it's like he's..." he struggles for the right word
"...broken" I supply.
"Yeah" Kyuhyun says "It's like he's broken"
We sit there in silence until Sungmin breaks it a few minutes later
"Do you really think Yesung's all 'broken' just because Ryeowook is leaving for the summer?"
"I hope so" Leeteuk says and we all look at him funny
"Because I'd really hate to think what horrible thing could have happened to him if that isn't the reason"
More silence until I have a thought
"Who's going to tello Yesung?"
A/N: so this was mostly a Yewook chapter but I promise Hyukhae will meet soon ^_^
Anyways, I'm sorry I haven't been around lately but hopefully my muse will come back and I'll be able to get back into writting.
I also really don't like this chapter. I feel like my writting style has changed or something and I feel like this chapter suffered because of it. I don't know. Tell me what you think.
Thank you so much for reading and for putting up with my long, long, long overdue crap chapter <3