Pairings: Eunhae. Yewook. Kyusung. Haewook.
Rating: PG-13 (for all 4)
Summary: Four stories of unrequited love that will never be told
He hadn't even noticed when Eunhyuk had entered the room.
"Donghae?" Eunhyuk asked slightly annoyed, he hadn't known the younger was going to be in his room and he really just wanted to go to sleep.
"What are you doing here?" Eunhyuk's annoyance grew stronger when the younger didn't respond.
"YAH! You're in my room so why are you ignoring me? he scolded but Donghae didn't answer, he didn't even make a move when Eunhyuk had raised his voice.
Eunhyuk got closer and finally noticed that sad faraway look in Donghae's eyes.
"Hae, is everything alright?" he spoke softly
It wasn't until Eunhyuk placed his hand on Donghae's shoulder that the younger even acknowledged his presence.
"Oh, Eunhyuk" He sounded genuinely shocked, like he hadn't expected to see Eunhyuk, even though he was in his room.
"Are you okay?" Eunhyuk asked again in that soft gentle tone
It didn't reach his eyes.
Eunhyuk could clearly see it was a lie. As cheesy as it sounded Donghae's eyes were like a window to his soul. Of course he could mask it but if you really bothered to look closely you could see how Donghae was feeling.
Eunhyuk knew he was lying but he didn't pressure the younger into telling him the truth. Donghae would have told him if he wanted him to know.
"Did you need something then?" Eunhyuk asked instead
"No" Donghae answered, he didn't even bother to smile this time and his eyes were starting to get that faraway look again.
"Aww then did you come to spend time with your handsome and perfect hyung?" Eunhyuk teased
Donghae didn't respond and Eunhyuk wasn't even sure if the younger had heard him or not.
The room was silent for a few minutes until Eunhyuk's yawn broke it.
"Sorry" He apologized, rubbing the back of his head sheepishly. Somehow, he felt really guilty for pulling Donghae away from his thoughts.
"You're tired" Donghae stated "You should have told me you wanted to sleep"
"Would you have left?" Eunhyuk teased and he was glad when Donghae had smiled.
"Probably not" the younger answered and then made a move to lie down on the bed "come on" he patted the space next to him "let's sleep together"
Eunhyuk could only nod his head before he crawled into the empty space on the bed.
For some reason it was more awkward then all the other times they had slept together and Eunhyuk couldn't figure out why.
"Sleep well Hyukjae" Donghae said softly and almost too quietly for Eunhyuk to hear.
Eunhyuk made a noise he hoped Donghae would associate with thanks and then closed his eyes and tried to force himself to fall asleep.
15 minutes later and Eunhyuk was profoundly asleep.
30 minutes later and Donghae spoke again, just as soft and quietly as before
"I think I love you"
"Would you regret it if I kissed you?" Ryeowook asked so quietly Yesung had to stop breathing and focus all his attention on the words leaving the younger's mouth just to hear them.
He sat still for a long moment, contemplating whether or not he should acknowledge the fact that he'd heard the other. So long in fact, Ryeowook had stood up to walk away.
"Yes" Yesung finally admitted.
Ryeowook turned around too quickly and stumbled before he sat back down in front of Yesung.
"Why?" the younger asked
Yesung only smiled
"I suppose I should already know the answer"
"I suppose" Yesung was aloof, cold even.
"What if I do it anyway?" Ryeowook asked defiantly.
"What if..." Yesung exclaimed
Ryeowook frowned again
"I am sorry"
Yesung smiled and then the room got deadly quiet until Ryeowook could no longer take it.
"I suppose you want me to leave" he said
Yesung shrugged "Doesn't matter what you do..."
"...Yeah. I guess...I'll just leave then" Ryeowook decided.
And that's exactly what he did. He stood up and walked to the door, his hand hesitating on the knob "I'm sorry I got drunk and made out with Kyuhyun" Ryeowook wished he could say the words, but they wouldn't come out. So instead he let out a sigh, opened the door and walked out.
Leaving Yesung alone with his thoughts "I'm sorry I retaliated by kissing Siwon and I'm sorry I don't have the guts to tell you about it"
That feeling was guilt.
And every morning just as he takes his last sip he decides that today, today he would admit his feelings to the maknae.
Every morning he stands up, with a stronger determination than yesterday and goes to find the youngest.
"Kyuhyun-ah" he calls just as he does every morning
And every morning Kyuhyun would respond the same, turning around and smiling "Yes, Hyung?"
And just like the hundreds of days before, Yesung's resolve slips "I just wanted to wish you luck today" he lies.
Kyuhyun smiles again, like he does everyday "Thanks Hyung"
And Yesung knows he can never admit his feelings for the maknae, not when he smiles at him like that.
But there was one more thing Ryeowook was sure about, he was pretty sure Donghae didn't see him like that, and he was fairly certain Donghae never would.
So Ryeowook poured himself another shot of soju and downed the liquor as quickly as his drunken fingers could manage. Hoping that this shot would be the one strong enough to drown out the feelings of love in his heart.
I promise I am going to try to update my other fics but I am seriously suffering from writers block